South Georgias Dixie Diamond's blog: "WHY WHY WHY"

ok... so here's the deal. I recently met a fellow military man on line. Matter of fact, on here. We have so much in common, that we just "mesh". So, here's the only problem though.... He's married!!!  He says that he wants to give her the chance to change, but I guess he just doesn't see it happening. According to him, they fight all the time and can't get along... but he says he thinks its b/c of him being away all the time. It seems it would be the opposite to me.

Now, here's the dilemma. After talking for several wks and getting to know each  other and so on and so forth, I have developed feeling for him .... a little stronger feelings than what i'm used to getting for someone so quickly. He makes out like he really likes me too. But, it seems to me that I'm just something to pass the time till he can get home to her and fix the happy family.

So, should I just say fuck it and not talk to him anymore until he gets his shit straight at home or continue to pursue him knowing that he has someone waitin  on him besides me. Hoping beyond hope that it won't work out. Wait, that's wrong to say.. .... but it's so true. I feel like I'm about to explode....I don't know what I'm feeling. I just know it's not something that I'm used to. Plus, I really don't want to be the other woman, but for him... I actually think that I would do it. Other than my son, he is all I think about from dawn till dusk.... and I smile when I talk to him... aaawww.. fuck it . ..I'm done.. I don't know what to do.

I recently decided that it was time for me to start trying to get back into the fast lane in life. The only problem? I live in a little podunk town where the most fun u can have is drinkin a beer and watching the mosquito's hit the bug zapper. So, I made the somewhat drastic decision to move up to Fort Riley,Kansas with my brother and his soon to be wife. ( I was invited to go up there so I could help get them on the right path! I would never impose on them like that!) I know that it won't be hard for me to find work. I have numerous degree's, diploma's, and licensing under my belt. The only thing that worries me is moving my 3yr old son so far away from friends and family. The only family he would be around would be myself and his uncle. So, do I take this risk for the betterment of my son's future and myown? Or stay where I'm at and just suffer in the hole in the wall town. I don't know!!!! SOMEBODY HELP!!!