Ok im gonna rant if you dont wanna hear me bitch you should probably exit this. . . Is it not fucking enough i stayed up all damn night when moms feeding tube poped and came out....that i waited and kept things ok so the er nurse could get here....I kept washing all that fucking blood and stomach acid off my hands jsut to tell her to try not to move...but no one fucking listens. So they fixed it about 4 am and i got a hour or so of sleep...but now shes up, its leaking horribly and she keeps falling... Her regular nurse just to check on her showed up today..but can bearly speak english...and said all the leaking is ok...even though nothing will stay in her, this lady is a moron i swear it makes me so mad...But i cant get a single nap in cause my sis is home from work and sleeping...and moms out of her mind and telling the nurse we let her fall all the time and she hurts herself, like we try to be bad for her...wtf i try very hard to feed her and give her meds i dunno what else to do, not much sleep is going on here. She is outta her head and trying to walk around and cook again...WTF im so damn tired of this, this is the second time in two days i've pulled huge chunks out of my hair, and i screamed at her nurse and her just a few mins ago. HOW CAN I POSSIBLY WASH THE DISHES AND THE LAUNDRY AND FEED HER AT THE SAME TIME....Dont tell me to do one thing when im already on three more.. Gah damn you! And the fucking job i needed isnt actualy giving me a job, go figure with insurance due today....And i swear if i get a comment talking about what to do for my mom right i will scream....Cant do right by my mom when the whole time i been growing up shes been a alcholoic drug addict thats talked down about me to all her friends and our family. Beleive me im trying to do what i can for someone that bad mouths me and calls me a liar and a slut to my family...Sorry just my lil rant cause i havnt had any sleep and i wont for a while, now im gonna try to squeeze in 5 seconds for a bath while she is sitting in one spot.
