So here it is, my third wedding anniversary - a normal woman would be so happy to see that it has lasted this long....me - i don't even have a husband to spend it with. Its hard to believe that he has been gone for 5 months now - this shit sucks - I try so hard not to cry and when i do cry all i ever hear from most everyone is "stop crying - its not doing you any good" or "crying isnt going to make him come back home" - NO SHIT retards....but a girl can still cry over the fact that her husband doesnt want anything to do with her anymore for reasons unknown. I mean....the best thing I got out of him leaving was my sister in law - I raise her and shes going to be 18 in just over a months time and then shes gonna be gone too. I mean...if it werent for me kicking my husband out I wouldnt have met the WONDERFUL people that I have met, I wouldnt have formed such close friendships with the few people that i have...maybe my life is just heading in another direction now - new doors opening, new avenues to explore. Theres one...and u know who u are...that keeps me smiling every day and I LOVE how he makes me feel - for him....I am VERY thankful - my new close friend ;)! Other than that - i have no reason to smile today - it hurts and this sucks - marriage is supposed to be forever - not just a few years and then....poof gone. Why doesnt forever mean forever anymore? Where is love - does it even really exist anymore? And if it does can someone please tell me why the hell it hurts so much???
