Well, i know I am probably gonna get my ass chewed for this one... but holy fucking shit... i hate men... you say one thing, and BAM, WWIII... i mean, HOLY FUCKING HELL.... I am not mentioning names, nor the discussion.... all i am going to say is, i now remember why i like being single... and why i don't like men, and why i keep breaking up with them, because i CANNOT deal with some of their BULLSHIT... i mean WHAT THE FUCK is going on inside your heads?!?!?! REALLY?!?!?! COME THE FUCK ON!!!! I say ONE THIGN, and it's like i fucking started a war... I don't get it... although, i know i'm over-reacting, because i do that.... often... but still, why i just spent an hour defending myself over something i felt, i don't know... I am so fucking confused right now... this ahs been the shittiest week for me... can anything go right? seriously... I know i suck at relationships... i have never denied that... but holy fucking hell... is this really my fault? Did i say something wrong? I don't get it... i really dont... this is why i dont' date.... now i remember.... CUZ I CANNOT DEAL WITH THIS SHIT!!!!!!!! Robin has a SEVERE mental problem... seriously... I have a borderline personality disorder... if u don't know what that means, look it up... but i really do... i have some serious issues dealing with people... evryone always asks why i don't have a boyfriend? Thats why.... I also have post traumatic stress... my mom died... this time of the year is always killer for me... and because of ALL of those things, i don't deal well with people... i have known this my whole life... THIS is why i am usually alone... THIS is why lindon left me... i do a lot of things, a lot of times veru hurtful things... but its unintentional... i truly don't realize i do it... which is why i tell people ahead of time... i'm a bitch... it takes a very special person to deal with me... like, um, the ones who don't exist... well, besides tiffany... but she truly understands me... i give the fuck up... i'm done with this all... i can't deal with it...
