I dont understand, I thought he loved me. I thought we could hold each other and never let go. I thought we could grow old together. But I was wrong. I have only been here for a week and three days and I can look in his eyes and see he doesnt love me anymore. I guess over the years his love for me slowly died away. The pain in my heart grows as the tears come more frequently at the thought of what I should do. He told me the other morning when he was drunk that he didnt want me here. Of course ten seconds later he denies saying it. I know I need to be strong and move past it but he was never like this before. We dated for two years and loved one another and got through hard times. Those were the best two years of my life. And for the three years were apart all I did was think about him. Now he is just pushing me away and the drinking doesnt help. He told me he cut down that was a lie. It has actually gotten worse. I cant talk to him because theres a wall there that just wont go away. But I have to do something before my heart dies of broken heart......
