So...this blog I'm not even sure if I should write it...i held off so
long but I am just tired of acting happy....something that is so easy
to do specially to my friends online.
I'm gonna make it short because after finally releasing this ..i mean
my offline friends know, and family but It was suggested to me by a
family member that I should just write from my heart this way some of
you I am close to will realize why I am a acting strange for awhile....And now that i found out my cousin told some of my online friends..i figured it's time i at least wrote a little something.
I'm drained from past things...I'm okay from it, i'll never understand
it...I am not going to try to understand it anymore I've just sort of
been accepting things, trying to be smarter and I guess trying to be
the one to be strong...
My mom was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer after Christmas. It just
happend all so fast. I had a close bond with my mom and spiratually
still do and always will, and I know now at least she and my sister are
together watching over us. She passed late evening on January 18, 2009.
I didn't say anything to anyone because it was too difficult and i did not want the "im sorry's" all over my pages..and i guess if i just blocked it out of my head i'd be ok.... and i am ok...just it's hard.
Ok..soooo....i hope my next blog is happier....over n out.
