Frayed Knot FM2 DRK's blog: "why i do what i do"

I blog I blog I blog! When I have something to say..I blog. BLAH!

 

who reads this shit anyways? Maji, Bill, John, Robert, Jude, Claire, Denise, Jeremy, Hughie, Ian, Pete, or Jim? Maybe Jay, Dean, Bob, or Fred?

well that should sum up my list of blog entusiasts. I love you all for taking the few minutes to read what I type. I have sat here and read the blogs I have posted over the last few years. The poems I have shared and thoughts forever frozen in time in text. I know I have deleted some of the most erotic or personal ones I didnt really want to read again. Sorry if you noticed or missed them.

 

I can't blog what is in my mind today. Bill might strangle me if  I do. And I will prove him wrong and stick to my guns this time. I will be strong, and use some will power. I wish to cave and make the hurting stop. It is useless pain anyhow. All inside my mind is where it originates and dwells. I'd like to give up smoking too..but today won't be that day either.

Thanks for treating me to a wonderful night of fun and food Bill! You are always there for me. I wish I could say the same about me for you ;) We both know I am a shitty friend to have at times. Even when I am there I can make you wish I wasn't LOL!

I have been a lazy bum today..and that is acceptable today! Tomorrow I can't be, and the rest of the week as well will be filled with productivity.  I won't apologize for not being available because I have to do what I must. I know everyone understands this. I do hope all of you named above and anyone I may have left out have a most wonderful week ahead!! ;) many hugs and kisses for you all!

Ok its Ass day :) I want to see your Ass!!! So let me know if you have an ass photo posted so I may see it :P thanks for participating and making my world a most maximus day!!!! ♥

Okay...I had a nice long visit with one of my good friends...(anonymous) and after i slept...I woke up (haha astounding I know) but I mumm'd now I do that occasionally, but this morning it was personal. Aside from the silly comments about smoking weed...it was a very decent response. seems I let my independant side think for me. Thing is I need my friends. All of them and i push so very hard to shut everyone out in order to preserve my appearance of confidence..which some can tell you isn't much to speak of sometimes. I am strong and resiliant but I am as fragile as a very thin glass...one that would be handwashed only and handled with extreme care. Me and my analogies..sigh so i decided..to open the access portal a bit...only gifts made for me or made for others will be open photo albums as well as my default. I have a issue with the photos..as if people could see me thru them and somehow effect me. Sometimes i wonder if I am a bit too sensitive and sometimes I think it is ok that I am...it is part of me. The shoutbox...still closed...this isnt easy for me..as i love the quick messages without traveling to pages...but..for now..still closed..the option isnt available to select who can shout me(to my liking) Do take time if you have it to check out my page..and leave me a snapvine comment..its stashed...or kiss my picture i have posted on my page..there is even a cute christmas tree with gifts you could leave me a present...I would do the same for any of you on my list...even those that aren't. Holidays are hard for a lot of people...why not try to make everyone a bit happier during those times...human nature once held compassion..i like to think my friends are compassionate as well. ok enough rambling for me..my fingers are cramping. LOL

and i have decided upon something. i have a central core of great fubuddies...i adore all of you..i also have a few close friends that i know better than others..some personally as in offline as well. you have all made a special impression upon my heart and i will keep you there with me wherever i go. i will be in and out alot when i find time to make the changes i am going to be making...so if you miss me leave me a comment or a dozen and i will return them when i am on. those of you closest to me have many other options for finding me than here on fubar. some of you dont. i know this because i know who i have where and who knows what. :P my mood is not odd..i think i am finally out of steam. life is funny...and i love to laugh...so bits and pieces of my world need to be put in their place and i appreciate the fact all of you are around. im very sleepy so if this makes little sense it is what it is...LOL night for now...have a great day my friends ♥