When i get drunk i get stupid and when i get stupid i make mistakes and ultimately i hurt him. I love him so much i couldn't sit there and lie... even though every breath in my body wants to just give up and let me slip away to nothing. It's not as bad as you think but it's not nothing... and "I love you" can never begin to cover how you make me feel sometimes... fear is no where near a strong enough word either... there are so many things i want to tell you but where do i begin and how do i know if it's all me or if you feel the same? I've never been one to just throw myself in the deepand and expect i know how to swim... but for you i would do anything so into the deepend i go... I'll just pray all night for you to call... I love you...