ok, first off i cant beleive im writting this, But i need to get it out. Things in my life have made it to the point of giving up in life, and letting my parents take my child. I joined the military to make myself stronger inside. On some ends it has. However with being a single parent, and being engaged to someone at the time, who is currently serving in iraq, and they proposed to you on v-day. then a month later tell you that they never loved you, never did and never will. Its fucked up in my opion. As a matter of fact it was to the pt, were no contact orders were about to be placed. However, a letter came in the mail that was written at the beginning of the month, that made a turn, to forgive and forget.
The past few days I have not been on tap or anything for that matter. I was more less in hidding. Didnt want to be spoken to, or anything. I just wanted to end life right then and there. I finally came got enough strenght to right the "its over" letter. This was due to the lack of not reciveing letters for two months straight, and not even getting a simple how are you. when they were online at least once a day.
Yes my heart was broken and the pain is there only life goes on. There is however a certain someone I meet the other day. This person has made me smile and think more of life. This I Thank him for. I dont really know how to say it. But, Im starting to feel a possible connection between this certain someone (they may already know who they are) I just dont know how to tell them. Ok enough for now, stay tuned for more news!!!! To this person I love you for who you are, and there is no one that can change you.
