I dont know, I know this is a bad way to start out 2008, but I cant help but feel as if I should maybe stop tryin to show love where it isn't wanted. All I keep gettin it pain and heartache, and that isnt what love is about.
He knows how much he means to me, what I wouldnt do for him, and yet, there is still something in him that I fight for. Why? I dont know.
But Im getting tired of trying and putting so much into something that he doesn't believe in. Yes, he is my best friend and he claims I am his. When he tells me he loves me, I believe him, but there is that small piece of me that wants him to love me the way he once did, when we were together. I know you can not make someone love you....I guess I hold onto that hope that he does. Maybe one day....but in the mean time should I keep trying? Should I let go? Either way...it kills me inside.
