LilBear aka HotandFluffy's blog: "Why do i feel like this"

Why do I feel like this??? Well lets see My sister Husband left last week to boot camp for the army. I don't know if i should be happy his gone and left 3 young kids and a wife behind (which my sister says they haven't been together since Jan but they live together till now Or should I be mad cus the kids don't have a dad and my sister is with out her husband. I cry all the time when I think of this and what the kids are going though not having their dad around for a while... My sister called me last night and asked me to watch her kids so she could go to the bar and well thats fine till her son woke up and was crying and wanted nothing to do with me and then thats when i started to cry again cus he looks just like his dad. I hurt inside cus hes not around and not with his kids and i know his kids miss him... so please tell me do i have the right to feel upset and sad that my sister kids dad is gone... Oh and i feel like my sister doesn't mind him being gone and shes not taking it like everyone else..