I knew without a shadow of a crazy doubt that I should have stayed home and just stayed in the bed. Plus I knew it was too easy for my ex to find me. As luck would have it he saw me today and had the nerve to ask me if I was mad at him. What did he want me to say at work? Oh no, I was sleeping? No, I did what I had to for the moment since I wanted to be back in the "safe" area (being in my own department) which was that I am busy and I don't wait around for the phone to ring. I have things to do. This didn't surprise me when I said it, but it did good for the moment. Then I felt like I was just completely on edge for the rest of the day. The last time he saw me today (towards the end of the shift for me) I had a long pole in my hand, getting onto a step ladder to move a box I could not reach and when I saw he was looking at me, I gave the look that said don't mess with me, I'm armed. Plus my having a cold right now didn't help my mood or anything else. I thought my headache this morning wasn't bad but then I saw him and the headache got worse. I think it's bad that he can't get over me even after he's been married twice (both times were not to me) and yet he forgets that there are just some things you can't forgive. It's a lot to digest at times. But I have friends that give me the strength to see the humor of things so that is a good thing.
