This blog will pin-point why I hate relationships and I think it is nothing more than a big source of un-needed drama. I am now 28, and I do own my own home. I pay my own bills and I try to be everything that I could be to everyone that I consider my friend. But the funny thing is that I simply cannot be anything more than friends with anyone. I am either too young, or I don't have a car,or any number of vast other reasons.
I am always being told that I am a wonderful friend and that I am very special to someone. But it hurts to sit and watch EVERYONE ELSE getting into relationships and being able to hold someone close at night. To be able to see that my heart will always feel this empty no matter how hard I try. I have some of the worlds most wonderful friends and I will risk nothing to lose those friendships. All I am saying is that I want to simply have someone in my heart and in my life who will be just as special to me as I am to them in a romantic sence.
I am not just about sex or anything like that. I do want someone to hold me close and lay with me. I know that I am sounding gay right about now but I am honestly a hopeless romantic and I cannot fight that about myself. Now about me, I am 28 and yes I am interested in older women. I do not have a car. But I do own my own home and pay all of my own bills. I do have a steady form of income and to be honest I do not do drugs alcohol or even smoke. I don't mind if anyone does because that should be their own choice. But Honestly I am tired of being judged on just a few things when I have a lot more to offer.
Why am I still single? What could I do different?
