I have a tough time sleeping at night, always have. I'm a total night owl, so to sleep early KILLS ME. And yesterday I was having terrible stomach pains, which I believe may be stress related. I'm not sure. Well, I was up late last night, and then woke up in the middle of the night with a terrible headache. Got something for it, went back to bed, cuddled up with Adam. This morning, I woke up to him sitting on the bed next to me, and he sat there and told me he loved me. It wasn't just a simple I love you... He told me that no amount of money, nor the stars, the moon the sun, or anything in the universe could amount to how much he loves me. And, he said it in that, sweet, quiet tone. And I couldn't help but just grin from ear to ear. To hear him say something like that, something so sweet, its like wow.... And for that to be the first thing I hear when I wake up in the morning... and of course, i didn't get it qouted word for word right. I was still half asleep. But, just, wow... I mean, what more could I ask for? He bends over backwards to make me happy... he loves me, he loves the girls, he would do anything in this world for the 3 of us. He is my life. He is my everything. I look back on the men I've dated and go, wow... how could I have ever settled for someone less than him? He is able to deal with ME. And for those of you who know me, you understand. He can put up with my possessiveness, my controlling, uh, whatever you want to call it. He can put up with everything I throw at him, and still sit there, and tell me he wants me. That he loves me. And that he will always be with me. I mean, in the time we've been together we've had like 4 or 5 fights. One of which was pretty bad and that was just the other day... So, I was like, screw it. Whatever. People fight, it does happen. Esp when you live together and are around each other so damn much. Which is why I've started going out and doing more with Alisha, it gets me out and about when Dennis has the girls. After all the losers I've dated, and the ones who've broken my heart, after all the tears, and pain... I've finally found someone who completes me. Completes my life, and completes my soul... for those of you who have known me since before Dennis, you know what bullshit I've been through with men. And Adam, is nothing like a single one of them. He is so much more compatible with me. I mean, WE GET ALONG. He doesn't piss me off... he is what I need. Someone who worships the ground I walk on, and he does that. Someone who would rather spend time cuddling with me than out being stupid (although i want him to come OUT with me and be MORE stupid sometimes lol) I couldn't ask for a better man, future husband, or step father for my life. Whatever it was that I have been looking for my whole life,I found... And I found it in him... Sometime, those of my awesome friends who i dont get to see as much, because, well, my life is so hectic, we'll have to get together so you can meet Adam. He is THE ONE. He is who I will spend the rest of my life, HAPPILY, with. Him. And after everything, and everyone, it seems so simple. I wish I'd have met him 10 years ago, and saved myself a ton of drama.... but, then I wouldn't be the wretched bitch I am today, and what fun would that be??
