there is a feeling of loss inside,so deep it's only felt once in awhile....looking to the sky for strength to get through another day....crying is like breathing,but never is it known to the outside world....can anyone see???will they know my thoughts and if they did,will i be judged???or worse ignored!!can i hold onto hope! will i break free of the chains of self-pitty or will they choke the life from my soul???somewhat in the dark...listening for the words to come...i am hearing a tiny voice but where is it coming from...what is it saying to me???finally....I'm broken from the shame of the only thing that i can feel....am I worthy? is there love for me? In my complete brokeness is where i am the closest to my resolve.....the only one who can take away the pain that criples me...the one to feel my hurt and dispair and still imbrace me with wholeness i dont deserve.....can this be?im feeling all warm from the inside of me....as i rise to see what this is that would lift my oppression and release my fears from me...I am in awe of what i see....its a reflection of me....and the voice from inside says...."I KNOW YOU,YOU HAVE BEEN MADE STRONG!THE LORD HAS EQUIPT YOU WITH ALL YOU NEED....i have been healed,delivered,set free...given joy,hope,unconditional love,now that my cup is full...let me fill yours...........
