jamielynn's blog: "Who Am I ?"

Ok, so it is that time again to dye my hair....yes I am covering up the grey my kids give me and making my roots match my whole head. :) But anyways, I am debating....keep it dark brown or go red.....hmmmmmm I don't know. I am always up for a little change in my life, and I guess if I don't like it I can always re-dye it, but will I look stupid?? What if I like it but others say it looks funny? Oh well, screw em' I think I am going to go red. Tell you what... I will post the new hair color when it is done. I am sure you guys will tell me what it looks like. OK, I am going to go for now. Have a great week, and I will talk to yall soon!! Love, Jamie

Imagine me smiling. Imagine me laughing at the silliest things. Imagine me crying. Imagine me walking. Imagine me running. Imagine me arguing. Imagine me praying for you. Imagine me loving. Imagine me dancing. Imagine me holding you. Now stop. Imagine if I was gone. Would you miss me? Imagine if you never knew me. Would your life be different? Imagine if you never saw my smile or heard me laugh. Would you miss it? Imagine if I never loved you. Would it matter? Imagine if I never prayed for you. Would your blessings be the same? Imagine if we never argued. Would you have felt the concern from me? We never realize the importance people have in our lives until they are gone. We take for granted the smile as someone passes us in our path, or the laugh from a loved one. We never think about what if that person was never in our lives. Would we miss them? Would our life be easier or harder? Would there be a difference? Would you be happier or would you feel like there is something missing? If I were to disappear would you look for me? If I were gone would you cry or would you feel peace? I think about the prayers I pray for people, and I wonder does it help? I wonder if other people pray for me, and if it is working. I am grateful for every person I have met. I am grateful for every lesson learned. I am grateful for every laugh, smile, tear, and ache. I am grateful for my past and my present. I believe everything happens for a reason. This includes every person. God has a plan for each and every one of us. He sets us on a path and watches us walk. He watches us stray from our path and looks at the people we meet. He also places people on our strayed path that will help us get back on our path. So think about it. What would your life be like without me? What would other peoples lives be like without you? Make a difference in peoples lives. Even if it is just a smile. Show someone they matter. Love you, Jamie

It seems as if once again no one really understands who I am now and who I will be for the rest of my life. Well let me tell you. I am a mother who has struggled for the past 9 years to take care of my beautiful girls. I am a woman who has been beat down so many times by boys who called themselves men. I am a girl who just wants to be loved by everyone. I am a person who loves God and all of Gods people with every ounce of my heart and soul. I am a dream come true to one very lucky man. I am a nightmare to those who claim they care about me, but don't care enough to try to understand me. I am a big sister who prays that one day her little brother and sister will really know how much they are loved by their only big sister. I am a daughter who truly loves her parents, but can't give up my beliefs to satisfy them. I am an Aunt who misses her nieces and nephews more than words can explain. I am a girlfriend to an increadible man who really does want me for me and not for what I have and don't have or will or won't have. I am a friend who truly cares about you. I am Jamie, and I really do love my girls, my family, my friends, and my beliefs. I miss my family and friends, but I will not give up my happiness to make anyone else happy. So please know I love you all very much. Stop by and say hello sometime. Love Always, Jamie