Do I remember how my life has come to be...what this is. I can not explain...so much damage done, I barely recognize me...I feel so lost in this circus, this fake reality...I move so slow amongst them...no one notices me...I'd feel so safe knowing...exploding...If only to be invisible among giants and a killer among thieves...Neither fate nor destiny could capture me...like that of feeling so unloved...alone would not hurt...wishing reality would be so numb......What am I seeking, I do not even know...Who I am, who I was...or how much longer I can go on before I'm done...Could someone else ever really know, answer these haunting questions, show me the way to go...Forgive myself...my past...my pain...take this confusion and my company "Misery"....Make me love who I am, Be happy with who I seem to see, stretched beneath my skin, so tired of waiting and so tired of running, from what has been, and what will soon come to be....HOLLY
