where are you when so much time to myself makes me reckless and restless. when the words won't quit and my fingers are tired. and i'm wishing that i could pause for a moment. have something else to appease my passions.
where is anyone. where have they ever been. no place that i know of. not the darknesss that i've been in.
lately time moves so quickly. and i don't understand it. cuz under the circumstances i would expect it to move slowly. but i guess i am different. always have been. it's times of happiness that every hour feels like years. that space between one weekend and the next infinite when there's someone that you miss.
but when sadness unfold its musty blanket time speeds up. months expire in minutes. and i go back and read the days trying to remember what was. even still, even with the triggers. it seems all a dream. that i've been sleeping since.
nothing seems real. not one single solitairy breath. all the months seemed to expire in only minutes. i don't feel like i've been alive at all. not since.
