I wish the rain would pour down
Then I could let the tears fall
I put on a brave face
Smile and swallow the pain.
I dreamed last night
That I was holding you in my arms
smiling blue eyed, blond hair little girl
I saw your joy and felt your love.
I woke up with empty arms
Wondering where you were
Then I remembered,
And I felt the pain suffocate.
My heart pounds out silent screams
That choke in my throat
I remain silent and anger wells
drowning out your face.
This day I am alone
I have never known aloneness like this
It is like a parasite
That devours what I had become.
Now nothing matters
No joy can be found
I try to run and escape
But my shackles bind me to you.
I am weak now
Exhausted and drained
The will that keeps me going
Fades with each dreary day.
Nothing more matters
One day slips into the next
My arms are still empty
My exsistance still in question.
I pray the pain will fade
but my pleas are met with silence
See this smiling face
It is a wall that is beginning to crumble.
