On October 3rd 2012, I was blessed with a neice, Madilynn. But being 2 months early, she weighed 3 pounds at birth. Which resulted in her living the first month and a half of her life in a hospital. Shortly after she was released to go home, we learned that she has a heart condition. Being the strong family that we are, we put on happy faces and fought through all the appointments and medication she needs to be healthy. About 2 weeks ago, we learned that she is also blind in her right eye. Well last night she went to the specialist who told us the most devastating news. Not only is Madilynn blind in her right eye, but she also has a cancerous tumor growing on the eye itself, and in order to stop it from spreading, they must remove the eye and replace it with a glass eye. Please keep in mind that this little girl is only 10 months old. The most innocent person I know. From the moment she was born, all we have done is pray that there would be no more pain for her. That she had had enough to last her a lifetime. But all we have gotten is problem after problem. How does a 10 month old baby, who knows nothing of the world and its evils, ever deserve that? I was born and raised in a Christian home. And I know I might be pissing off a lot of people by saying this, but right now, I am questioning my beliefs. Where is your God now. And where has he been for the last 10 months while this little girl has been going through pain?