to anyone who wondered where i've been the past 9 days:
checked into the the hospital at emory university, where some young doctors got the bright idea to give me double the max dose of my anti depressant, take me off my anti anxiety meds, and put me through the controversial yet effective and safer than you'd think electro convulsion therapy.
i'm safe, and probably better than i was before i checked in...
i have my next treatment tomorrow morning.
thanks all