CantSleepClownsWillEatMe's blog: "Where ever I may go"

Sitting here pondering once again. Today is the 2nd of May and I leave to go back to the USA in 17 days. Right now all that is crossing my mind is that it is 17 days too soon. Yesterday when Rudi and I went into the city, everytime I looked at him, I swear I fell a little deeper in love. Didnt know it was possible, but the feelings I have for this man take my breath away. Having to leave Germany for at least 90 days before I come back feels like a life time to me. But that goes back to the name of this blog, Where ever I may go, its just a reminder that where ever I may be, the love for Rudi will be stronger then ever. I really do feel that our relationship is strong enough for this time apart, although I wont like it, I know that its something we have to do. After being so addicted to his touch and sweet embrace its going to be a little lonely without having those in my life. I honestly believe I have my soulmate here in Germany....Rudi if you read this I love you with all of my heart and soul! I know that we have spoken of marriage, but until he is honestly ready, just knowing that I am his girlfriend does complete me.