i wonder sometimes if i'm lost or found
it's not like you to be not around
all day long i sit and i stare and i wait
but that doesn't help the feelings to abate
all the anger that i'm holding
all the rage that i'm keepin
all the questions that i can't quite ask you
cuz i don't know how
like why aren't you here n why do you always gotta be gone
or why is your shit more important than the love we had
it's so cold here
surrounded and still alone
i know i should leave but it's still you i wanna hear on the phone
every time it rings and every time it's not you
i die a little more inside
how long you gonna do this
how long do i have to stay
i'm tired of killin myself each and every day
bein happy when you call
worryin myself sick about you when you don't
what'd happen if i did this to you
left when you needed me
gave you the cold shoulder when you finally decided to love me
callin every now and then
just to say i love you just hopin that you're there
but never understandin and never listenin to what you gotta say
never openin my eyes to this perfect disguise
ignorin what i'm doin to you cuz i'm chasin my own life
