Acrisia's blog: "When will things feel right?"

I lie awake at night

and wonder when things will feel right.

I stare at the stars above

and question the existance of true love.

What I seek is not perfection

I merely want a close connection.

I want to be loved for what is me

and not for the potential you see there to be.

I want to feel secure when we sit and cuddle

or even as we sit and watch a Monday night huddle.

I want a friendship and deep understanding

and the comfort and peace when emotions make a crash landing.

I want a shoulder to moisten with tears

a partner in life to help me push away my fears.

A face that can make mine brighten

when I need my spirit to heighten.

I want to be loved because of my flaws

and to be the one that makes his heart pause.

I want my happiness to be his priority

for our love to be so strong that we're a minority.

These wants are not just a one way thing

I want both of our hearts to sing.

I want a sense of safety and security

and a continued feeling of purity.

Maybe what I am looking for is too much

but I want to always melt at his touch.

I may spend a lot of time exploring

but I know when I find him our hearts will be soaring.

I could give up and merely settle

but the love i need is as soft and bright as a petal.

I have come to realize that what I deserve

is a man who is happy with what I have to serve.

I'm not foolish enough to think that I'm the best

but the man I'm seeking will happily give up the rest.

He will overlook my many imperfections

and never regret that choice in his reflections.