When the tears fall
and my head is throbbing
telling you everything i hate about myself
wishing i could have been stronger
to hold true to myself
but lifes lessons would not have been learned
and i would not be who i am now
can you see through this too
can you see me
can you see the real me
and not walk away
can you handle the mistakes i have made
the loss of self
was the hardest to regain
and although the past still breathes through me
i am no longer lost
to myself I have found my dreams again
I have found the strength to become whom i am today
with the love of family and few friends
as i close my eyes
and think of you
my soul speaks to me
in the softest voice
singing through the tears
through the pain
the anger gone
and the light of faith returning
to what was once lost
my heart is hungry for someone to love
to hold, and cherish as a part of my life
i no longer need someone to make me complete
but to make my life complete
someone to share the blessings of this life with
someone to help me raise my son
and provide that stability he so desprately needs
someone to lean on when life seems so overwhelming
and a hand to hold as walk down this new path
i can do it on my own
but my soul hungers for your touch
to see your eyes light up
just because i enter a room
to have my breath catch as i watch you with my son
just know that i am no longer easily molded into someone else
i will no longer change just because it makes someone else happy
i am strong enough now to hold what i value close
and argue for what i believe is right
actions speak louder
just give me the chance to prove it
i will not fail again
my heart cries for yours
do you hear it
praying that this is real
and not another illusion
because it can not handle another loss
to love again
after so much pain
to trust again
after so much abuse
to breath again
after drowning
through the pain
through the tears
comes hope
and dreams
love singing thru my veins
eager to prove my worth
but not to loose myself along the way
to be part of a bigger whole
to enlarge my little world
to encompass yours
and to cherish you
treasure that you are
and bring more smiles than tears to your eyes
to see you and see the love we share
to hear the words you and i speak
shown through our actions
to completely heal ourselves and eachother
to love completely
truly love again
and be loved
to hold and be held dear
as we drift off to sleep
this is what i pray
this is what i see
do you see me
can you accept me
only you and time will tell
but know this
i will be here
with you
in spirit, mind, and soul
for the simple reason
because i love you
