XaviRoseMaiden's blog: "poetry"

we always think its others fault .but sometimes love isint meant to be

sometimes its both that fuck up and make love go on a different path . hurts like a motherfucker but sometimes its wrong .. some people arnt ready for the commitment love brings .. and they get distracted by other things .. the other day i told my ex i i missed so .. and i guess its true but it don't change the facts .. it dont change how he left me adaboned me .. and broke me heart .. and went to another to heal the scars on in his heart .. i don't and can't understand and never will .. when you give up everything you are for one .. when thier your heart and our soul .. how can anything come between that .. how can one choose the other day .. and spend moths in a strangers arms .. miles and miles away .. and when his daughter cries hes not there to hear her .. i cried myself to sleep night and night i couldn't eat .. i wanted to die .. i felt like i always did .. i gave him so much of me .. so lost in him .. i lost me .. i misssed my family so far away .. not close enough to be there we i cried .. when my heart broke .. it was pretty much like lifes sick joke .. he hurt me so bad .. and yet . a part of me still loves him as he my daughters father .. but i dont think id ever trust him again in the way .. so on we go to find our way .. trying not to hurt each other with cruel cold words .. on and on live our daughter the link the binds us forever .. and shes the most precious thing i have left .. if i ever can deal with a love so deep again i don't know .. who knows what life will bring.. judge me if you will for living my life but til you walked in my shoes .. youll never know .. noones perfect .. especially not me .. im as human i can be .. i slip oi fall and sometimes i crawl slowly through life on my hands and knees ... lifes a mystery and always will be ..