I have been through two marriages and several relationships. Each one a failure or something went wrong on my part. The last relationships I have had both guys had me so confused I didn't know which way I was going. I am to blame for my last one ending the way it did my I got rid of the problem, I told the one from before my last one to leave me alone. He ignores me for several weeks and then calls me. Then he uses me and leaves with out saying a word which pissed me off cause I seriously didn't want to have sex with him. But the word no got stuck in my throat. For some reason I got scared and couldn't say it. I think I was more relieved when he left then when showed up. Well the guy I was last invovled with is a friends with benefits so there should be no loyality. But yet he got upset and jealous and next thing I know we are a couple and he makes me feel like shit. Needless to say I was very upset by this. Well Saturday night I was at the bar and he walked in, then he walked to the other bar and I walked over because it was packed in the bar we were at. I talked to a friend and then he and I talked. We discussed our friendship and staying friends. Only one problem with that, we are back to where we started. I am waiting for the right guy. What if he comes along and I am invovled with this friend? Am I suppose to break things off this guy, would he take me serious about a relationship if I am invovled sexually with another guy? Or is this guy that is suppose to be my fwb the one? I don't know what to do. I going circles.
