So I sit here looking at the events in my life
Did she mean it when she said she'd be my wife.
I think of the promises to those that i have made
Did she believe or just think i wanted to get laid.
Looking at myself from anothers eyes is the hardest thing to do
Did she hear my words when I said to her "I only Love You".
Feeling emotions going back and forth through my head
Wondering is it destin for me to be alone until I'm dead.
Wondering why I feel like this but yet want to survive
I wake in the morning breathing no thoughts of suicide.
Seeing into the crowd all my friends they shine and smile
As I watch there loved one work hard for that extra mile.
Knowing it's not them hurting me, it has to be my past
Maybe because I don't know how, is why it never last.
Always believing theres someone for everyone
Just not really knowing how do I get to be that one.
I can see her desire to hold me in her arms
But it's not for keeps its to fear off the harms.
Still standing hoping she'll get that look in her eye
And will stay by her side until the day comes When I.
J-Dubz
