There's more than I can say
And there's a deeper part of me
Won't you be my inspiration
Help me end my desperation now
Sometimes I wonder why even when I'm feeling like I could never be more happy, or that anything could bring things down; somehow it does. I've been in a relationship now off and on for quite a few years, and it seems like no matter what I do "with the best of intentions", it explodes into pieces because of things I think or say that are way out of left field.
I'm a pretty lame person when it comes to "worst case scenarios", if there's a negative reason why something might be the way it is, I'll look at it that way with her. I can't grasp what drives me to be that way with her because she makes me complete, and feel loved and all the amazing things that come with it... but yet I put this dark cloud over it.
Tell me what it is I'm meant to do
I've fallen to my knees
I've shed away my tears
And lost my destiny
I'm not the kind of person to throw everything away over trivial stuff, more so when it involves someone I'm head over heels in love with, but there it is time and time again. I trust her, I want to be with her, and I hate when we're apart. More than anything I wish I could just wake up tomorrow and be able to say the right things to make her feel good, and be there for her the way I know she wants me to be.
We don't spend very much time together because of work and things we both have going on in our lives, but we do what we can... and I honestly can't figure out what makes me think the worst or feel like this isn't something genuine.
I sit beneath the sun
My hands held to the sky
I cannot ask a question
But still I wonder why
