spydagirl's blog: "What??"

SUFFER You left me to suffer On the cold damp floor of my conscience Knowing how much it would hurt How much I would scream in the night But you left knowingly Now my world has hardened Harder than a rock Never to be broken again Left in the silence of the stone layers I scream for you The more I scream The more layers are added The less you hear me You don't think to care To wonder Or even feel The pain I go through for you You left to never return again Wanting to hurt me You left You hurt me like I never thought possible Deeper than a cut The more I scream The more I bleed I bleed when I think of you How you left The floor dampens with my bllod and tears Always flowing Never Stopping The floor dampens the more I scream The more I care The more I think The more I feel for you I'm trapped Trapped by my pain Never knowing when it will stop I wait By: Bobbie A. Walde

SEA OF DARKNESS I feel myself falling Into a sea of darkness With no way out I try to reach for you But the harder I try The farther away you are You try to extend your hand You try to help me out But nothing you do works So I keep falling Into a sea of darkness With no way out By: Bobbie A. Walde

I'm 19 years old and i still have to fight with my parents in order to go to KY for Christmas with my boy. Isn't that some shit. I get to buy gifts for my boy, his brother in law, and the two babies. I don't like buying gifts. People tend to return them, but I'm not alowed to give gift cards. I hate those damn rules. Shoot me now and get it over with.