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At this point I have miscellaneous thoughts swirling around in my brain, so I'm going to ramble about some of it. lol :) First, It's interesting to me that no matter how independent you are, there is still the desire to have someone in your life to share it with. I think I personally tend to go through phases of either wanting to be unattached or being in a relationship. Generally the phases are dependent upon various things. With winter here and the holidays approaching I am going through the phase of "Yeah, it would be nice to have a special someone in my life." Gosh darn it I don't really want to be kissing some random stranger at midnight on New Year's Eve. Although I guess that could be fun. ;) lol Finding someone is easier said than done though these days. Yeah I meet guys,some better than others, but there always seems to be something. Either they are cool, but the connection just isn't there other than on a friendship basis, or they aren't dating material, or they send mixed signals, or they have zero personality or any other number of things. lol It can be very frustrating. :( Yes, I know that it will find you when you least expect it and that I'm probably putting in too much effort. Although I'm really not putting in that much effort. lol ;) Heck at this point I'm not asking for Mr. Right, since he apparently isn't ready to make his appearance. :) I'll take Mr. Right Now in the interim as long as he's a nice guy with some personality, somewhat reliable and we can enjoy each others company and just enjoy our time together. For some reason I suspect that even the decent Mr. Right Now's will be hard to find. lol Since that seems to be the story of my life at the moment. Sometimes I wonder is it just me? lol Maybe I'm not as frickin' awesome as I think I am? lol That's impossible! Right? ;) My sister thinks I'm conceited, but I'm not. I know I am far from perfect, but that doesn't make me any less extraordinary. I'm just happy with who I am and know that I really am pretty spectacular. :) Also, with the New Year approaching I've been thinking about goals, plans, and dreams for 2007 as well as New Year's resolutions. Boy is there a lot to think about! lol I know that next year is going to be a big year for me, I suspect for many reasons. One being that come August I will be Thirty and Thriving. ;) Turning 30 doesn't really worry me at all. I'm actually looking forward to it! Now I just have to come up with the perfect way to celebrate it. ;) In addition to that there are some things I want to accomplish before 2007 ends and I know that I will see them come to fruition. Bring on the New Year. I'm ready! :) With the New Year on the mind relationships are obviously a topic I have thought about. Those who know me well know that I've been struggling with the whole relationship thing lately and that I really do have reason to at this point. So yesterday I randomly remembered a movie I watched a few years back that had a few quotes that really struck me back then. I had the movie title totally wrong, but thanks to the wonderful internet I was able to track down the quotes. :) They are: "There are too many mediocre things in life to deal with and love shouldn't be one of them." "Anything less than mad, passionate, extraordinary love is a waste of your time." The first one is SO true! Remembering it has helped me realize what I need to do with respect to the relationship uncertainties I have. I can't settle for mediocre. No matter how good it may be in other ways, if it's not what I TRULY want then I just have to keep going and let the true thing find me. In fairness since there were many good aspects in that relationship I will make one last attempt to talk about it frankly with the person and see what happens. If it's not there then it's not there and I will have given it more than it's fair share of a chance. As to the second quote I think "waste" is somewhat extreme, since we do learn things from every relationship we have, but I can see what is intended by that statement. If you spend your time in the mediocre relationships you could be missing out on the one truly amazing one. Starting next year I will be reminding myself of these two statements regularly. So I guess in 2007 I won't be looking for Mr. Right Now. That is unless we have a "temporary" mad, passionate, and extraordinary conection. lol ;) In closing I came across this quote yesterday and I love it. :) I guess ultimately I am looking for that guy who sees me in all my glory and all my flaws and loves me all the more because of it and I will see him in the same way. :) "You will not find love by finding the perfect person, but by seeing a flawed person perfectly." So true, so true.

I'm so Vain?? lol

Okay, so today's thoughts are Wow, I'm hot! lol So . . . Does it make me vain because I sit here and look at my profile pic and think to myself, Gosh I'm cute! lol Factor in how frickin' awesome and extraordinary I am and I should be outlawed! lol j/k I shouldn't be. ;) Or how about the fact that I just added two new slideshows solely of pics of me looking fabulous! My camera loves me, what can I say! lol I couldn't help it! Well, I'm far from vain, but I am cute. ;) I may not be perfect but I'm still happy being me and I wouldn't have it any other way. Isn't that the way we should all be?
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