Ever feel like that little kid you see standing outside the pet shop window just with a sad little face staring so intent on that little puppy he or she wants??? Knowing that they cant have it but wanting it so badly??? yeah well that is how I feel... had a casual friend tear down my walls and get to my heart and I fell in love with him and now I am that sad little kid staring so intently at him wanting him with all I have knowing I can never have him... I am leaving for Iraq and I dont want him to wait for me but it kills me to think of him here and me so far away... I do love him so very much but he is not ready for a relationship and I am scared of one.. guess I will just sit outside the shop and enjoy the view... maybe go inside and pet the puppy once in awhile... but yet it breaks my heart...
