Morning Dove Fu Married To Lord Wolf's blog: "What have I Done"

WEll I contacted a hell of a Back door virus today.It totally prevented me from any internet play.I couldn't even get windows to open,Finally did.An I had to do a 2 week system restore.I'm now running unprotected.I know where I caught the fucker at.Friendster I hadn't been there in 3 months.A chick I know from NF. whom also belongs at friendster sent me this Virus.I am so pissed. Today was my 90 day being sober.Tomorrow I'll recieve my last coin from the program, but I don't plan on haveing a drink till my 117 th day. I went 60 days with out pot. But on my 61 st day I just had to get the Ultimate Kind Bud.My 1/2 oz of that lasted 15 days not bad, concidering I had to smoke with ungreatful others,then the Bastards had the nerve not to smoke with me today.I just wish I could meet a new Gal an move away.Nothing left in Massachusetts for me no more,except my damn medical conditions,with all the Cuts the Fuckin Republicans have caused all over the U.S.an the ptiance of my disabilty check proberly be 5 bucks more.Whoopi do.If u all don't see me around for a few days its because of that Damn backdoor Virus.I'll rate u-alls pic's when I can.

Hows it going.I had to get past issues out of my head.I could have put these blogs at other places where I belong but for some Insane reason I posted them hear.I was going to unload my issues of Drugs an Alcohol at tonights NA meeting.Unfortunately I posted this Fucked up reading here.9 days today with out a drink.giving up the pot is going to be tough cause most all where I live use it.I haven't bought any in 2 months,but was told last night I had better buy some this month.that screws up my plan's to escape from the temptations of Drugs.Prescription drugs are my only vice now,The past 9 yrs that I was with my Ex,I didn't do any Coke or nothing hard just weed that we both injoyed.Since we broke up I proberly snorted it 5 times.all done with it.All the yrs. that I preach against it.Made a hipacrit of myself.I just didn't want my friends to Fuck up there Lives like I had done.I'm very close with my Friends there Brothers that I never had.An I Love everyone of them,an they Love me as well.I have basicly been a good guy all my life.Last of the all night partiers,Title ended about 10 yrs ago,when I met my Beloved Kate.We started as friends,I was her new pot Connection,but from the very first time I met her I Desired her.At the time I had a GF + 2 Lovers.Nothing Serious just awesome Sex.But I gave them an everything up for my Wholesome Kate.to be continued.