xX TishyLicious RLGF2 Just Syn Xx's blog: "Poetry "

should i tell myself its over?
should I finally give up? 
Should i lie to my heart,
Saying I dont need his love?

Should I smile when i look at him,
Tell myself it is Okay,
hes moved on,
And so should I,
I will someday get through this pain;

Should I hold back my tears,
Not let him see me cry?
Should I Walk away with Confidence,
Or should I tell him what Ive locked inside?

Should I hold onto this Dream,
Or should I finally set it free,
Should I Walk away forever?
its not like he still loves me;

Should I fall apart within his arms,
Let him see how I truly feel,
Should I Pour my heart out to him,
Let him know what I feel is real;

Should I Forget about what happened,
Somehow forget he even exists,
Should I tell Myself it will Be okay,
Even though without him, 
Its hard to live;

These questions I keep asking myself,
Are tearing at my heart,
I Dont want to walk away,
But i cant take it anymore;

This struggle I am going through,
not knowing what I am to do,
I dont know how to cope with this,
how do you deal when the one you love,
Doesnt love you?

How do i tell mysel Im okay,
And actually throw away this pain,
How do Look into a Mirror,
Without seeing it all over my face?

how do i tell myself i dont love him,
When deep down i truly Do,
how Do I forget about him,
When hes the one im terrified to lose??

I dont know what to do,
All i can do is softly cry,
As i Lie awake in my dark room,
awaiting another Sleepless night