I'm with this girl... and her girl... because I just wanted a chance to be with someone I thought I cared about at the time.
Or maybe I just wanted so bad for someone to want me too.. even if I had to share.
I do like her... I did like her... but I knew she was still in love with her ex. And she wanted to date me and her ex (who lives in another state) at the same time...
at the same time...I don't love her, but it just felt so good to be wanted again...
However, when things get bad here, when I need her, she doesn't have time for me. It's like I'm her girlfriend when it's convenient for her. Since I'm here, then I'm just the "physical" girlfriend. I don't want to be that...
I have more feelings and emotions than that.
I have every reason to leave.. I should just leave. I miss being held, being comforted, being wanted... all I want is that feeling again...
guess, it is better to be alone than to share an illusion of being cared for...
