Ok I’m back and I got changes coming and I don’t like it!…. Well some I do and some I don’t!…
First my mum went into hospital two days ago and there keeping her in the cardiology step down unit…… gods that sounds so bad… I’m left to keep the house in order and now my sis say’s she has a place of her own and she is moving out so now I have to keep this place all by my self witch isn’t that hard since I was the only one doing it to begin with!…
But anyway I have this wonderful woman in my life called Suzan and I am seriously thinking moving to Sydney to be with her… the only thing is that will leave my mum with no one as her mum is moving down the coast….. and my sister is a bitch so well I’m in a very hard place right now and my heart is tearing in two and I just don’t know what to do!!!!!
I’m fucked whatever I do!… I know I want to be with sue but at the same time I don’t want to leave mum…… now mum has been keeping me back for all my life…. Always have I had to look out for her and keep her non of my family will lift a finger to help at all……. So as always I’m stuck with everything and being 23 now my life is going no where but the muzzle of a gun or the blade of a knife!….. And I’m praying every night that I don’t do it!…. Not that I will as I don’t really want to be sent to the void to pay for doing it………. Lmao
Shit though I got to help Simone pack her shit for Saturday…..no soza Sunday…. And I hate this shit as I still have a tone of stuff to organize with me wanting to go to Sydney!… and if that ain’t enough my sister has a son bout 4 right well he’s in school now and who has to pick him up? Huh? Me….. Fucking ME!…. And his father? Ohhh no his father is a retard who don’t want to take like three minutes to pick him up and drop him off….. Wtf!?! Stupid dick!….
Ok I think that is enough ranting for me!… I’m off to do some work in this gods forsaken house…. I hope I get to come on here after though……
Ok
Catch ya in the slipstream!
Always fucking it up, WolfiePuP X
