i8h8's blog: "were by your side an your on your own"

Just finished a read through, for a short film i am working on! and i realize that when i say those words to myself, it dawns on me that i never thought i would be working on film.Or how fucking hard it is to get six women in one place for three days! i mean ialways have issues getting women. but this is just daffy. I mean wow hard as hell! i cant bitch cause i l love to do it. but filming falls on my birthday, and sadness just comes with another year down the tubs either happy or other. but who wants to age. i mean i guess we all age damn it! i need to go into outer space where gravity has no effect and i wont age! hahahahahaaha that is my next mission. to never age! i just commented on a friends picture, the picture was a nun, and i have nun fetish though i dont know if this person knew that! i mean they know it now. how weird is a nun fetish, i dont think that odd compared to peopel that like skat, or pee! i mean hell im normal comparitavily! eh whats normal

damn it! i find it hard to be alone when surrounded by people! though when i look out at the people i am surrounded by i am alone! but then you think about it! an try to ignore the fact that life is lonely! i like to focus on other things! like fun an drunken things! of course we must all sober up sometime! of course when is sober up i try to find some other means to end my lucid thoughts! which never works! so being drunk is really merely a form of escape! but i like to escape, the real world or reality is a bitch, and i prefer to live n my own fantasy! lost in a sea of nothing but my own creations an if other people wander into my world then so be it! but should i feel guilty if people get lost in my world! no i think not! they knew the risk and if they didnt then they should have thought more on the matter! why join someone else's world. my world is created solely for my own fun! join my world at your own risk! i dont think i should be responsible for your loss at my fun! i mean hell, if you didnt need the outlet then you wouldnt have found me out! i am merely trying to pass the years away with a grin like everyone else! is it my fault that my passing is filled with nudity and drunkenness and such that others feel the need to join in! regardless of the stablity of the owneners reality! I am tired of being blamed! fuck you and all those that get caught up in my momentary passes of time! i am not to be blamed because others need amusment! and mine is all they could find or is the best they could find at the time! i do what i do because i need to be sidetracked! if you fall in the firing range then dont blame me for being shot! we all must be shot sometime and its how well we fall that makes the us who we are! dignity damn it! i lack it and at the same time am full of it! fuck the world for all its lying!

i really dont get some of this create a blog then name the damn thing i figure if you create it then its named but things seem to want to be more complicated then they need to be!simplicity is the sincerest form of sophistication(wow big fucking word, particularly for me) nothing greater then a mad summer heat wave! being a bit thin i take heat well! of course when winter hits im all about freezing my ass off! but i take it as it comes! Dragon con is soon upon us! i cant wait till that day im not certain to go but if i do yay for fun in costumes comics an geeks! i try to drag people to it because its worth every penny!thinking of goin as Wil E coyote, which is a bitch in itself! but worth the work! fuzzy an doggish! im all about it! well sorta im a cat person but i like WIl E coyote! determination in cartoon form! I work in a butter factory an i package butter! yea the job blows but it pays till i can do the whole school thing!(which you have been puttin off for two years!) shut the fuck up, anyway i package Kosher butter, which is jewish butter. an the machine i use is horrid wretched beast of a whore! On break i walked into the break room bought a snickers, looked at my coworkers an said that kosher butter is making me anti-semitic, Well no one knew what that meant.When i turned around the rabbi was standing behind me! i felt like a huge ass! an stumbled on my words to explain it wasnt the butter but the machine an i was merely saying because i had to use that machine to make that butter! And that i liked jews, i started mentioning mel brooks, sammy davis jr, John landis, then i realized that i was mentioning rich famous jews! well i live in TN there arent that many jewish people here! he laughed even harder an told me that the machine had made him late for a flight! an he had to reschedule an leave the next day! well me being me i pushed my luck an told him i bet that was a bit pricey! at least he laughed! but i still felt like an ass! as he left i turned to everyone an asked them why they didnt tell me the rabbi was behind me! they asked why then i told them what anti-semitic meant! an they all laughed! I didnt laugh! no i mentioned to them that i wouldnt have an issue running them over with my car! but at least the rabbi had a good sense of humor! Just one of those things that makes you wish you had eyes in the back of your head! well that an i have missed a great deal of really funny things because i had my back turned! i should be writing something but i just came seem to focus on that! I hate writers block! so what do i do i come on a blog a bunch of pointless stuff! that is basically just jibberish ramblings of a ADD mind! meh what can i do! no one really reads this shit but me! so it works! BaWahahahahahahahahahahaha you must DIE I ALONE AM BEST!