simplysusi's blog: "Why does life have to be so hard. ( family at home issues)"

Okay this is the situation i am in. I am living with my grandparents and trying to better my life and myself. I have been asked numerous times what I want to do and what i want out of life. I know what some of my plans are but how can you make any plans if you dont know what the future holds for you? I know i want my family to accept the person i am with for today and tomarrow and the near present future for who he is. I know that my life needs some improvement and i am thinking of going back to school. I know that some of what I want will never happen.I know what i need to do, and that is to get things straight so i can go out and get my own apartment and deal with life. But also i just got a bunch of bills taken care of too, so i am just thinking what is it that i really want in my life. I know i want LOVE and HAPPINESS and to be able to pay for bills and then be able to have more money so i can go and still take care of my other needs and wants. I know in the future i want to have one maybe 2 kids. I also know i never want to be homeless so whatever i decide to do i have to be able to support myself. I think working in an office would be fun..and i would love to be able to be on the computer all the time and i am thinking i would make a great secretary. But i am not sure what else i can do, and what i want out of life...like other ppl i know they know what they definately want and i know i am not like them. So i have two choices....one is to sleep on it...aka make plans and then decide how to go about them or to just ignore the whole thing.... To appease my family they want to see me get things going in my life so i think i might just go and apply for ACC or something..not sure yet. Or i could tell them like this ../. *^^*../.