Okay. I'm not really good at letting out how i feel....... Anyone who knows me knows i'm a listener. Anyway.....
These past few weeks have been really stressful for me. My mom was in hospital in serious condition for a few weeks. Yes, i was scared..... Nothing like this had ever happened to me, i thought my parents were indestructible. I guess i was wrong. Seeing my dad so worried and upset about her made me realise how much in love he is. And that made me think.
I'm not going to mention names, but several of my really close friends had found partners and were in love. I tried to hide how sad and, i suppose, jealous i was but i couldn't. So that is an apology...... If i hurt anyone with my actions i am sorry. But you have to understand, i have never really been that popular, so the thought of everyone else in love made me think how terrible i must be for no-one to like me........ Okay, it makes so sense in the light of day, but when you are down...... Its just feels like the end of the world.
But...... There is an upside. Recently..... Well, things have looked up. My mom is better, i have been smiling and bouncy again, and i think i may have found someone. Yes, me. Not bad huh? It just made no sense at the time but i am over the fricking moon!
Well, thank you for reading through this garbage... It's not astounding, it's not record breaking, it's just part of me.
