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THE LAST GOOD BYE.
I turned my head away so she couldn’t see me wipe the tear from my cheek with the back of my hand. When I turned back she was looking at me. I could see it in her eyes that she already new that she would not be going any further with me. Where she was going I would not be able to follow. Her breathing became more shallow as she tried to smile at me. She was so weak that she could hardly speak. I knelt down and bent close and place my right ear close to her. So I could hear what she was trying to say. As I knelt there I looked into her blue eyes. They didn’t shine like they used to now they were a dull grayish blue. I swallowed hard and fought back the tears. I gently stroked her face and said “They will pay for taking you from me.” My dear sweet wife raised her hand and gently stroked my beard like she had done a thousand times before. But this time it was different because both of us knew it would be the last time. She then said to me “ It will be alright my dear. Do not waste your life on vengeance.”
I looked at her in disbelief. “you can’t be serious I asked?
But she never heard my words fore she had died. I fell back on the ground and began to cry like I had never cried before. I took her hand in mine and brought to my lips and placed a single kiss in the palm of it. I pulled myself together and knelt back up beside her. I gently stroked her golden hair whispered “ I’m sorry my love I cannot have any peace until those who have taken you from me have paid.” My tears fell like rain drops from the sky as I closed her eye lids over her blue eyes. I dug a very deep grave over looking the river that she loved so well. I then lined it with flat stones from the river. I did not want any creatures dinning on my love. I placed
her into her final resting place.
And began to refill grave with the dirt I had taken out. I packed the earth tightly around her. Then atop of the dirt I placed the biggest and the heaviest flat stones I could carry. Then atop the flat stones I placed several pine logs varying in diameter. And finally atop the pine logs I placed more flat stones.
Taking my knife from it’s sheath I ran the razor sharp blade across my hand. When the blood had completely covered the palm of my hand I placed it upon one of the flat stones and made this promise. “I will not return here my love until I have every head of those responsible for your death.”
"A woman is like a beer. They look good, they smell good and you's step over your own mother just to get one."
Just because i don't know, dosen't mean i don't understand.
Lets see how honest people can be. On Christmas eve you are given ONE wish and ONE wish only. And NO you can't wish for more wishes.
Yesterday i had a great day. But then i did what i do best i ruined a good friendship because my feelings towards this person got the best of me. It happens every damn time i'm friends with a girl. The more time we spend together the more i want to spend time with her. BUT there's a major problem she's married and has made quite clear that she thought of me as a big brother Now she probably don't think of me at all. There is no one to blame but me. I took something she said to heart and blew it out of porporation. And well as they say words were exchanged which i regret saying now. You can't change the past can you? it would be nice if we could just think of the stupid things we have done or said to someone we really care about. Only time will tell if we could ever be friends again. I highly doubt it...:(
Well it's been a full year since i got divorced. Things are a thousand percent better then they used to be. My bills are paid before their due i have my phne bill and electric bills are paid off. They were supposed to be paid off before now thats what i was giving the X wife my paychecks for. What she was doing with money? i have no idea. But it's all over now and it was the best thing she ever did for me. I truly hope she rotts in hell.
If anyone reads this you may think i'm bitter well your FUCKING right i am if you had gone through the bullshit i had you would be to. for fourteen years i put up with bullshit from her mother and here. and for fourteen years i was there by here side when she had several surgerys. I did it all for what? NOTHING. I did it because i loved her with all of my heart and soul. Well it's history now and i'm damned glad to. Time to move on with my life and thats exactly what i'm going to do. I've got a pretty good start on moving on. But i like to vent once and a while.That's all i have to say right now some of you who read this will be glad that i'm done crying in my beer...lol.
Well it's been almost two years since the X-wife and I had gone our seperate ways. It's the best thing she ever did for me.
