I have these feelings swallowing me up that I need to put down on paper. I have some wonderful and awesome friends on here that truly do care about me and for me as a real person. Yes, I have felt my heart being silently stolen on here.... and I have strong feelings....But, there is always one problem...and because of that.. I am sharing...
I moved out of a relationship around 5 years ago in search of happiness. I am still searching. I just am having a hard time knowing why. I think I have all the qualities that are desired, but I am still alone..I don't get it.
I do not believe in hitting women and children. I'm a lover not a fighter. I do not drink till drunk, I will call just to say I was thinking about you.. I have the sweet, caring, loving, thoughtful side. The sensual, sexual, passionate, affectionate side. The goofy, nutcase, laugh till you cry side. And, the serious, talk about it, fix it, take care of business side. What's the problem?..well... I have a tendency to end up being a day late and a dollar short. I am really skilled at discovering all the women that are already taken or still have feelings for an ex. I have been in some hurtful relationships. Believe me there are some evil women out there, it's not just guys that will play you. So, I don't know how to go about all of this. I am all man but yes, I am afraid... Am I just really that unlucky? Am I just not as "marketable" as I thought? I don't understand. It is said there is someone for everyone. Did I miss mine? I am really confused. I have spent the last 5 Holidays alone. I am going to do it again. It sucks not to be able to share. I have a lot of love in my heart to give.. doesn't someone want it?... If you can help me to understand..please do.. I am befuddled.
