So what I daydream a lot, that has already been proven a fact from my random rambles about nothing. I often wonder what I'm daydreaming about when I'm interrupted, I usually sit and ponder this and that for hours on end staring out a window. Usually when i recall the subject matter it always ends up blurry as hell only remembering points and pieces no connectivity. I understand that it's not outrageous to believe that I should be out enjoying my health and my youth but right now there are pressing matters I need to deal with and this is the only way, secluded from everything until I can find a resolve for this conflict that has been pestering me for the last couple months, plus I like being alone sometimes it helps get back to the basis of who i am, it's only an opinion. I like bats, horror movies, alien invaders, werewolves, vampires plus alot of other sickshit that i won't say that i like in front of my mother. I have no mental illness's and I don't hear voices or anything like that, I also seriously doubt that I'm depressed, if I am it's the best depression that I has ever been . People go around diagnosing each other based on their own experiences and their own insecurities only to validate themselves. I have been deemed bi polar and mentally strapped because I don't won't to hear the stupid shit that doesn't interest me. im not sayin that everyone around me has invalid discussion I'm saying people assume that the things that they want to say are things that everyone wants to hear. ItS NOT. I'm not a schizo because I was in a good mood yesterday and I'm in a bad one today, that's called having a personality. Its absolutely bogus that I can't just be the fucking guy that doesn't like to talk all the fucking time instead of the jerk that doesn't like anyone. I would like a lot more people if they acted like people instead of mtv wanna be Vj''s. I hate everyone of those stupid "UN"REALITY shows, I did like the real world around 7 years ago but now, oh especially the one well I can't tell the difference they are all about putting kids in adult situations, it's either the oc or laguna beach whatever. Nothing against the shows themselves, I've actually only watched maybe five minutes of whatever it was because a girlfriend made me but you don't have to taste the smelly crud on the bottom of your shoe to know it's shit. I think that everyone should say what they feel and not script according to the actions of their favorite soap star. I've never thought to myself "what would Spongebob do in this situation" but I am and E.nigma but the character batman isn't my advisory. T.v is stupid now I barely can watch anything but the judge shows and surprisingly the most idiotic show ever spongebob square pants, I love it because the intent is idiocy and not trying to depict the world through fish eye lenses when the affect doesn't compliment the footage. Dammit, I lost the point again!!!end
