Ok everyone i wanted to let you know if i don't see your chat message or I delayed in answering does not mean i don't want to be friends or chat.

I work days and some nights retail and this time of year is chaos for retail....long hours and sometimes i just don't log on from being tired.

Please don't think i am ignoring you..will just take a bit to get back with you.

SOMETHING ABOUT ME PERSONALLY:

I find this best describes me though with the right Dom/Master i would completely give all of myself and pass that threshold

The Submissive with the slave heart:

This is the deepest level of submission. The submissive with the slaves heart wishes to completely surrendered without becoming a slave. In the psychological submissive the submission comes from a psychological need to submit. However the heart is a different matter. The love of the dominant is craved. The submissive with the slaves heart desires to give her/his heart as well as her/his submission to the Dominant. The psychological submissive needs not be in love to submit. However I feel the submissive with the slaves heart has a need to give not only submission but also love with that submission. The submissive with the heart of a slave is at the threshold of completely surrendering her/himself to the Dominant. The level of trust is greater in the submissive with the slaves heart then the psychological submissive.


SOMETHING MORE ON WHAT I SEEK ON A SUBMISSIVE LEVEL:

this one lost in her thoughts wondering if will ever know the true joy and bliss of being as she was eight months ago to a year ago. Lot of things have happened in this time. Drama and whispers that ruined the start of some very important things in this ones life. And caused lots of tears and heartache and managed to push this submissive into hiding deep within her soul.

Has this one been lost yes. Not in the physical sense no, but in the spiritual and emotional and mental being that the submissive within has to some extent been and felt lost and and yet screams to be found.

This one is no doormat has there been real life opportunity for sex with out the care and dominance of a Master and/or Dom? YES but this one does not crave that!

this one craves more then that, this ones soul sits in nadu, head bowed and back straight her eyes to the floor, her breast jutting forward and her palms up resting upon her widely spread thighs in readiness for the ONE that will claim her mind, body and soul and cast open the doors within her freeing her, wrapping her up within in his arms, filling her ears with whispers of "myne", all is right now, you are home......

It gets lonely wanting to be that special one in someones life, to be Masters pride and joy, to feel the warmth of his smile or the caress of his hand upon her cheek, the whisper in her ear she has pleased him well.

To be in constant daily contact with him, to make him smile or just touch base. To know he misses whats his as much as his misses him.

This girl is rambling, so very lost in her thoughts, very very lost within them and so much is there and wants to come out this one does not know how to sort these thoughts, feelings to get them to her fingers to write them down.

thus this girl is rambling, and not sure quite if she is making sense of any of what she has said here.

Thus, this one does know:

Eight months ago this girl was asked this question: What does this one seek out of a Dom/sub or Master/slave relationship. This was this girls answer and still holds true today and will always hold true till the end of time.

No matter how many times this one is asked this will be the answer.

*this one is deeply passionate and classifies this one as a true hearted submissive as it states in this ones Fet life profile. this one longs be complete and whole in her submission. this one yearns to be dominated, tied up, flogged owned and made to feel owned that she belongs and so much more. this one has longed for the touch of a Dom/Master/Daddy for a long time. this one aches at times so bad this one is in tears.

this one wants and needs to be dominated with a firm but loving protective hand who respects her and treats her with care and not as a thing to be used and abused, but to take into account this ones wants and needs and attempts to meet them to mold her and train her to set her free. this one wants to serve a Dom/Master to feel useful to be subservient.

this one is strong and not a doormat and this one needs so very much to find a Dom/Master/Daddy that can tame this ones fire in her belly to kindle it and bring it to a raging flame for him.

this one wants to be a Dom/Master/Daddy's pride and joy to please him in all she does to meet his needs as he meets this ones. this one wants to be who this one is and have her Dom/Master/Daddy love all that's about this one to build on how this one is and to become Sir/Masters gem.

this one wants to learn and be taught, wishes to be protected and loved. this one wants to earn the honor to wear a Dom/Master/Daddy's collar. this one wants to learn all this ones Dom/Master/Daddy's needs and wants how to please him, serve him to know him well enough to know what he wants before he does. this one wants the ultimate bond a sub/slave and can have with a Dom/Master/Daddy to be HIS.

this one loves the caring and soft side of the Dom/Master/Daddy. this one knows that it sets this one free with the firm rough lustful almost beastial traits of masculine and true Dom. this one wants to tingle for him, submit fully heart body mind and soul to him. this one wants to explore and learn with him to grow and strive for perfection in all this one does.

this one aching now her heart crying out for the touch of a true Dom/Master/Daddy, this ones pulse racing, this ones breath shallow but fast. this ones skin tingling and feeling as if being enveloped in soft cool embrace of passion of want and need of a Dom/Master/Daddy. this one's belly burns for release only a Dom/Master/Daddy can bring to this true hearted sub/slave.*