okay i need to seriously vent over here...
i need serious help too... i swear idk how im not fucking locked away yet...
okay, i go to skool about once or twice a week n i HAVE to go tomorrow... ppl better not fuck with me so help me god... speically the fucking lil retarded kids that piss me off or ill go off on there fucking ass... and i cant do that cuz i will not stop when i start...... so therefor... i will get locked up that way
grrr i want someone to fucking shoot me right now damn it
i have to get outta this house this weekend... i need to get away from all the shit with ppl and my family and everything
i dont know how much longer ill be around...
im getting the fuck outta ny as soon as i can...
im gonna go fucking insain, my depressions getting worse and the meds arnt working
pains getting too much to bare physically and mentally... im so fed up with everything
why the fuck do i even bother with anything anymore
i cant wait till it gets warm so i can start walking up to bates road cemitary and see my brother... i go there talk to him relax and just cry...
im gonna end up crying my self to sleep again.. i just got outta that but of course it always comes back...
im soooo pissed right now
ima end up with another peircing in my ear tonight i know that much or a bloody brused up knuckle from beating the shit outta my file cabinet
i want to run away so bad n just leave everything and everyone for a while..
i really think it will be better off that way.. god damn i wish i wasnt here... never born... i feel so sorry for my friends n family for having to deal with me...
grrr im just soooo fucking aggravated and frustrated with everything
im going fucking ballistic....
I CANT STAND MY FUCKING LIFE
