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so obviously i let things bother me wayyyy to much. so much so that sometimes it consumes my life, i am an extremely emotional person (some can chalk it up as me being nuts or crazy, i assure i am neither). when i get to whining and cryin about something its only cuz i let things bother me sooo much that it will spill out all at once. i just need to vent out my frustrations once i do that...for the most part im fine unless its something serious then i get into one of my states where im freakin out. the people who know me best..know how to read the signs and are ready to do what they need to do to see me thru, those are really the ones worth having around!!. yesterday of course was one of those days where i had noone to talk to so i put it down on my blog. it helped some but not completely. i guess i just need to grow some thicker skin and just say fuck it! FUCK IT! that felt kinda good lemme say it again FUCK IT!! yea lol that felt good..now if only i could have a more of a fuck it attitude and not be so emotional i could avoid gettin hurt to the extent that i do. like i said before i take responsibility for my actions..i totally know how i am and how i come across..im aware of my faults and flaws....but i also take my feelings very seriously and i dont appreciate it when my time and my feelings are being played with. if i overreact, well its hardly my fault if im being lead to believe something that is a lie. but lemme get back on track lol. point is if ur my real friend, my emotional outburts shouldnt be a problem and you should be there for me to support me cuz i would do that for any of my friends. guess im just tryin to say is im an emotional person people..love me and accept it or bug off. i dont need anymore negativity in my life..i have enough of it comin from me i dont need yours!!
does any of this make sense? no..sorry i was just rambling lol. if u read all of it..thanks alot i appreciate it...if not i dont blame ya lol laterzzz
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