ASIANHOTTIE DNO's blog: "me just being me"

Theres been a few time durning my days that if when things go great you always have a great feeling that something best will happen to you. But then something gets in your way and it all turns to dust. Then you just give up hope! I always have times when I just want to give up and just not care at all. Like noone cares, noone gives a hell about what you think. Thats why I dont bother with some people. I never depend on them. Because to me right now... If I worry about the people who is just going to bring me down then I wont get no where ahead to make things happen. So I dont bother with anyone who dont understand of what im trying to do for my self to make things happen. Well anyway... Even tho I feel like giving up! And even tho I feel worried about whats going to happen for me as I get older? Still yet I try to push my self to move on and get ahead to where I want to be. I just wish tho I have never messed up in the pass. Then I could of get somewhere along time ago. But its never too late for me. Im still young and I trust my self that I can get to the things I dream of having. Now I love it here in hawaii and Hawaii is just wonderful, and full of life and beauty. But to tell you something. I really just wanna leave. I really just wanna get alway from everything that is just making me unhappy. I know you may say... im running alway from my prob. And its not like that or im I trying to sound it like that. Its just to calm down for awhile and get things started in my living. Then when I have things in order. I should fly back to hawaii and fine my own pad. Doing that would be a nice start. And seeing the world is another as well. One of my first place out of the U.S. would be Paris! I love to see whats like over there. Or disney land would be another great site lol. I wanna meet mickey mouse haha =P And later when things are good for me and I saw everything and done everything I need it to do. I want to one day get married and have a family +_+