valetines day.. a day for love, a day for romance.. a day to chereish your other half and aprreciate having them... a day to treat someone you love with all the love respect and honor you hafve in your heart.. unless.. you don't have anyone to share it with.. like me.. i spent last valetines day alone.. and again this yrear... makes me wonder if i'll ever have anyone to share it with.. it seems not.. i have been let down numberous times, by the ones i love.. i give everything i have and more, i am dependeable, loyal, i don't cheat , beat or mistreat.. but still i get walked on..i get dumped.. i get lied to.. i get used.. for moneyt, for sex, for resources, fro influence... why?? can't someone appreciate me FOR me..isn't there anyone out ther that wants a nice guy?? yeah i'm a little rough around the edges, yeah, i used to be a bigtime hell raiser, yeah i love dirty jokes.. so what.. doesn't every guy??? is there anyone out there that wants me?? isn't there anyone out there who thinks i'm worth the fucking effort of putting the time and work in?? tell me.. because, i don't see any.. tired of being played like a set of drums... i want more than that.. something real.. done venting for now.. comment at will.. night..
