i keep reading my blog and it makes me cry to see how far i've come in my life. with so many things coming, too.
allie came over on tuesday and we went to see lacey in the hospital with her new baby boy. as the three of us approached the door to the hospital room, we all just stopped. i've have friends with children, but i've never been close to someone that's HAVING a baby. that's around my age. it's. amazing. to stare at this new life, so peacefully sleeping wrapped in a white blanket. this little guy has NO idea what he's in for. and i was so happy to see jeremy by her side throughout the entire hospital stay. people can change. and i want nothing for the best for the three of them.
nate phoned me a while ago to tell me that they're on the way back from philly again. the van popped a tire and went off the road. that's the forth time they've tried to go to philly - it's not worth it. they're never going again. thank GOD everyone is ok. the truck is in worse shape than they are. which means i get to spend this evening exactly where i want to be.
when i got home last night after going out to dinner with my mom, i put on some techno music - it's just a reflex i guess. and as i sat there bouncing to the beat, i realized - i will still be going to raves. if there's a dj that's playing in this area that's worth me getting off my lazy ass and going, i'm going. there's still two more people i need to see play before i die - my favorite (dj promo) and jenn's (dj isaac) favorite dj. and i don't need the drugs to enjoy the music. i always listen to it sober. it's just you can't take an entire night of BOOM BOOM BOOM without something in your system to handle it.
and that's that. i suppose. i've lost my oomph to blog. ta ta blog land. for now.
