Utterly disgusted with myself
Tears of anger
Tears of Pain
I should be ashamed
I try not to let the whole world see
All the things that are wrong with me
All the little voices in my head
Sometimes wishing I was dead
How am I supposed to act
When my brains aren’t in tact
Can’t concentrate on everyday life
Too afraid to use a knife
Trying to forget the pain
Stepping out into the rain
Looking up into the blue sky
Please God I don’t want to die
I just want to be free
Why do I always feel
Like my life is surreal
I just want to stand up away from this
Say goodbye to the feelings and give you a kiss
I want to be normal but what is that
I don’t want to be this fat
I want to wipe away the tears
And say hello to the next 50 years.