this is AHOD, he will enter your dreams and subtly devour you.



Be wary, there is quite a bit of writing on this page. The views and commentary expressed on it are the property of me, unless otherwise noted. By reading this you are agreeing not to be a complete moron when you attempt to contact me. By not reading this, you are making it me a quite easy for me to ignore you. Please, when you send me a friend request, put the word "chicken" in it, so I know you at least got this far. <3




I am an angry, hater type person, and I do not apologize. I give everyone I meet a chance to prove that they are worth knowing, and I am one of the most understanding people you will ever meet, if you can get past all the hurdles.



I hate...
.x. Passive-Agressiveness
.x. PETA
.x. The Emo and Hardcore 'subculture'
.x. Fake people
.x. When people don't want to talk about anything but sex. [I will not cyber with you, I will not be your e-whore, I will not sit on cam for you so you can see my "smile", yes I do have msn, no you cannot have it.]
.x.People who talk about things that they don't fully understand as if they do.
.x.Religion.
.x. Hypocrites


.x.When metal is written off as just noise.
.x.I-tunes music reviews.
.x.Trends, and people who follow them. [especially if they say it's not a trend I'm a goth! Goth is dead people, it died with the opening of Hot Topic.]




Okay, now that we've gotten through the negative...lets go to the positive [what little of it there is].

I am a cynic [realist]. Do not tell me to smile more. I do what I want motherlicker!

Oh right, positive.

I love music, mostly metal and industrial.

If you ever want to talk to me, expect random and sporadic comments. I don't really care if you're offended either. Especially if you talk to me first.

I play video games a lot, if I'm not answering you..I'm probably playing WoW, (I've since quit WoW and I am now looking into playing Borderlands) Plants Vs. Zombies, or more likely, ignoring you. Or living, y'know, going places...hanging out with people IRL, I bet you didn't know people who play WoW do those kinds of things! Yes [some of us] do!



Some random things about me.
.x. I love dragons [and I believe I probably was one in another life]
.x. NIN is my favorite band.
.x. I am nocturnal.
.x.I love those cheap ass hotel blankets that are really soft but stiff and annoying at the same time.
.x.I believe that Satan lives under Wal-Mart.
.x.I am a nihilist.
.x.I enjoy writing poetry, but I feel like my muse is currently hidden away somewhere.
.x.I have a biting fetish, and a fetish in which I enjoy the feeling of my feet cramping up.
.x. I have phobias of garbage disposals, screwing in light bulbs and automatic doors.
.x.I like to go off on tangents.
.x.I am here to insult you, stare at you and make you feel quite uncomfortable.


All that aside, if you still want to talk to me, please by all means...hit me up in shoutbox, I love discussing just about everything under the sun. Of course, you have to be willing to actually talk. If you're on here, typing should be a skill that you have.

much love and kitten fetuses, barricade


beat my head to wake up cause I feel as if I'm sleeping
past is in the heart and I am waiting for the rhythm
feed the holy jaws no saying pain is the answer
after all is gone the story leaves me feeling empty
and all alone it leaves me feeling empty
breathe we are all animals inside free the spirit is alive to guide us
we're all alone and really feeling empty
we're all alone
when all revenge falls apart taken a step back from the start
it leaves me feeling empty
[Skinny Puppy/Empte]



this quote from Metal: A Headbangers Journey, pretty much sums up how I feel in general, as well as how I feel about music.

"Ever since I was 12 years old I had to defend my love for heavy metal against those who say it's a less valid form of music. My answer now is that you either feel it or you don't. If metal doesn't give that overwhelming surge of power that makes the hair stand up at the back of your neck, you might never get it, and you know what? That's okay, because judging by the 40,000 metalheads around me we're doing just fine without you."